Saturday, March 26, 2011

change




Change
I would never be the same again
It’s not for better or worse
It’s just whatever it is…….it’s a change

What an unannounced and yet not an unwelcoming change
That has quietly submerged in my subconscious
because I haven’t figured it out yet
it just appears to be a mildly fault and then,
when I try to realize
it turns out to be a stronger seismic wave
that I cannot control but it’s going down
below the mantle that still haven’t even surfaced

I am a little less of that old me as days pass by
There is nothing I have to be afraid of
It’s just an invisible force that takes me to an inevitable- change

a whisper



A whisper
I don’t know what I’m feeling anymore
It seems that everything reminds me of you lately
I can’t believe after all these three years
It’s like a dream, a fantasy or an illusion
That has awaken in me
I don’t know if I feel joy or am I’m just restless
But you has always been a mystery to me
How can a picture evoke so many emotions?
There’s been so many things that I left unsaid
Maybe so many things that I didn’t have the nerve to face

Here I am waiting for something to happen
Clueless and confused
But certain that I felt something for you
It was real at last for me it was real
Not sure what it meant to you
But I would wish I could go back in time
And try harder again

It’s getting hard to breathe all of the sudden
The air is getting heavier and heavier
Or am I suffocating myself by this exasperating loneliness?
Who would think that being alone would affect me?
Maybe other people but not me
I don’t know if I feel nostalgia or am I going through changes?
But the feeling of not been able to be with you
Makes me wonder what could’ve happened if I wouldn’t been afraid
It’s like a reproach, blame or guilt
That I subconsciously place to myself

Here I am waiting for something to happen
Clueless and confused
But certain that I felt something for you
It was real at last for me it was real
Not sure what it meant to you
But I would wish I could go back in time
And try harder again

But I’m not gonna forget the sound of your name that easily
How could I forget a sweet melody?
Even if I call other names
Your name would still be like
A whisper